Review: Existence


 

Review
Theodora Petcan
„He was
definitely the most unique soul I’d ever seen.”
I can admit, with a lot of shame, that I have chosen to read this book because I simply let myself fascinated
with the cover, but I’ve got goose bumps all over my skin. The concept itself
hasn’t been met in this composition before. I’ve accepted that I could get disappointed,
that I could run myself into a book that could leave my breath just the way it
should or take it away, forgetting how to breath.
The only jerk in the room happened
to be the judgmental, elitist female. Me.”
I wasn’t
disappointed when from the first chapter I’ve been shocked to meet a normal,
sweet, shy, beautiful and intelligent girl – Pagan Moore, I wasn’t disappointed
neither when I found out, from secure sources, that she could see the souls of
those who stayed to wander the Earth. I was really surprised when one of the
souls, the most beautiful soul that she has ever seen, could speak!
“I don’t want you to just be my tutor. I want you to
be the girl I look for in the halls every morning and save a seat for in the
cafeteria. I want you to be the one waiting for me when I walk off the field at
my games. I want you to be the one I pick up the phone to call just to make me
smile.”
At
first she is just scared, like any other human being when meets something new:
we all get scared. She feels herself naked in front of him, caught in his eyes,
in his strong soul arms. She lets herself walked by him, in a chaotic manner, I
can say.
„Since it appears that the rest of the students in
this room, who were in fact here on Friday, seem to be suffering from memory
loss.”
Then
Leif gets himself into the portrait. The most beautiful guy in school, a
womanizer, always with his jokes packed in his bag. Leif asks Pagan to help him
out with his speeches for his class, where he was having some problems. At first
Pagan says ‘no’, because she believes that the only things that he wants is to
make fun of her, but because her mother keeps pushing her, she says ‘yes’,
getting to like Leif. To discover Leif and his true nature.
“GAH! Have you seen Leif? I mean honestly can he get
any hotter? Oh, yes he can.”  
Surrounded
by her best friends: Miranda and Wyatt, also known as the most beautiful couple
in school, Pagan lives a double life. She is the normal and sweet girl, but
also the one who can sees the souls wandering through corridors of the school,
hospitals, walking through the supermarket. They are everywhere. She keeps
trying desperately to find an answer to her question: who is the Soul that
talks to her and why is she feeling more and more drawn to him?
„I can’t be tempted. I’m not made to be tempted but
you, Pagan Moore, you tempt me. From the moment I came for you I was drawn in.
Everything about you…”
And
then it happens! For the first time she leaves school during classes, for the
first time she stars the engine, puts her seatbelt on and cannot stop at the ‘STOP’  sign. A truck hits her car and she gets out
alive.
But it’s
impossible!
With this
occasion, Pagan finds out about Leif’s feelings, about his wish of being with
her, about the fact that he blames himself for what happened and the most
important thing: she lives with him – with the Soul – for many nights,
in the company of the most beautiful lullaby possible.
‘You are not a body. You have a body. You
are a Soul’
After
her recovery, Pagan comes back to school, with Leif always on her tracks, the
perfect relationship. But when she finds out that at school enrolled a new student,
the head of the rock band Cold Soul, Dank, she doesn’t have a reaction, but
when she realises that Dank Walker is actually the Soul, everything
changes!
“My beautiful soul,” he murmured and caressed my
cheek. “When you gave the ultimate selfless sacrifice, it paid for my wrong.
You proved to be worthy of my devotion. Of Death’s… love.”
Moments
of pure jealousy happen for a long time, moments of pure agony, of involuntary
desire of being with someone when you are already with someone else.
But things
have to change! Dank leaves. Pagan remains with even more questions. Her interior
realizations making your own heart to suffer for at least one single shown up
of him! But his stubbornness conquers any limits. And where do you put
the fact that after she is being hospitalized in an institution, having the diagnosis
of PTSD or Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Pagan finally can hear his voice
again, her lullaby composed especially for her.
<< “I get to keep you,” he said, staring at me
with an intensity that made me shiver. “Keep me?” I asked, reaching up to kiss
his chin and trail kisses down his perfect neck. “Not here. I can’t take much
more, Pagan. I’m only so strong,” he said in a husky voice as he pulled me
against his chest. “You’re mine now. While you walk the Earth you belong to me.
Nothing can hurt you.” I heard a touch of humor in his voice. “It’s pretty
impossible to hurt what Death protects.” I smiled into his chest, wanting to
stay in his arms forever. But there were questions I knew I needed to ask. I
could bask in his presence later. >>
There is
only one problem: he has to die in order for her to live. She has to die in
order for him to survive! But how can you sacrifice yourself for Death? Dank is
actually Death. Death, the most important soul from any of them! But Pagan
doesn’t know any limits when it comes of love, so she throws herself right in
Gee’s arms, arms that where going to get her away from Earth! Arms that where going
to destroy all her love for him. What will Death choose? Will he accept her
death or will he die? Will there be a happy ending?
I recommend
it to all of those people who consider that Death hasn’t been explored just the
way it should have, to all of you who want to live closed into a subtle
romantic story, turned on at the loudest volume.
“I love you,” I said, causing his face to contort in
pain. “I’m not a man so I do not have a heart that loves as a human does. I’m
an immortal god that dwells with supreme power because I hold the keys to
Death. But you are my existence. I am yours.”
Happy
Reading!
 
 
Romanian Version:
Existence
Abbi Glines
Recenzie
Theodora Petcan
„He was
definitely the most unique soul I’d ever seen.”
Pot să recunosc, cu multă ruşine, că am ales să citesc cartea pentru că
pur şi simplu m-am lăsat fascinată de copertă, dar şi de descrierea care pur şi
simplu îmi făcea pielea de găină. Conceptul în sine nefiind unul întâlnit în măsura
aceasta. Am acceptat că aş fi putut să fiu dezamăgită, că aş fi putut să dau
peste o carte care să îmi lase respiraţia intactă sau să dau peste o carte care
să aibă grijă de respiraţia mea pe toată perioada cât nu mai respiram, adică
deloc.
„The only jerk in the room happened to be the
judgmental, elitist female. Me.”
Nu am fost dezamăgită când de la primul capitol am fost şocată să fac
cunoştinţă cu o fată normală, drăguţă, timidă, frumoasă şi inteligentă –
Pagan Moore, nu am fost dezamăgită nici când am aflat, din surse sigure, că ea
poate să vadă sufletele celor care au rămas să cutreiere Pământul. Am fost cu
adevărat surprinsă când unul dintre suflete, cel mai frumos suflet pe
care ea îl văzuse vreodată poate să îi vorbească!
“I don’t want you to just be my tutor. I want you to
be the girl I look for in the halls every morning and save a seat for in the
cafeteria. I want you to be the one waiting for me when I walk off the field at
my games. I want you to be the one I pick up the phone to call just to make me
smile.”
La început este speriată, ca orice fiinţă umană care face cunoştinţă cu
o fărâmă de noutate: se sperie. Se simte dezbrăcată de privirile fascinante ale
sufletului, se simte prinsă în privirea lui, în braţele puternice de suflet ale
lui. Se lasă purtată de el, dar într-o măsură haotică, pot spune.
„Since it appears that the rest of the students in
this room, who were in fact here on Friday, seem to be suffering from memory
loss.”
Apoi, intră Leif în peisaj. Cel mai frumos băiat din şcoală, fustangiu şi
mereu cu glumele după el. Leif o roagă pe Pagan să îl ajute cu pregătirea
discursurilor pentru ora de discursuri, unde el avea probleme. La început Pagan
îl refuză, consideră că Leif nu îşi doreşte decât să o enerveze şi să îşi bată
joc de ea, dar la insistenţele mamei sale acceptă, ajungând să îi placă Leif. Să
îl descopere pe Leif şi adevărata sa natură.
“GAH! Have you seen Leif? I mean honestly can he get
any hotter? Oh, yes he can.”  
Înconjurată de prietenii ei cei mai buni: Miranda şi Wyatt, de altfel şi
cel mai frumos cuplu din şcoală, Pagan trăieşte o viaţă dublă. Este fata normală
şi drăguţă, dar şi cea care poate să vadă suflete colindând holurile şcolii,
spitalelor, plimbându-se printre raioanele de la supermarket. Sunt peste tot. Încearcă
plină de disperare să găsească un răspuns la întrebarea care nu i dă pace: cine
este Sufletul care îi vorbeşte şi de ce se simte din ce în ce mai atrasă de el?
„I can’t be tempted. I’m not made to be tempted but
you, Pagan Moore, you tempt me. From the moment I came for you I was drawn in.
Everything about you…”
Apoi, se întâmplă! Pentru prima dată pleacă de la şcoală în timpul
orelor, pentru prima dată porneşte maşina, îşi pune centura de siguranţă şi nu
mai poate opri la semnul stop. Un camion o loveşte din plin, iar ea scapă cu
viaţă.
Dar este imposibil!
Cu ocazia aceasta, Pagan află de sentimentele lui Leif, de dorinţa lui
de a fi cu ea, de faptul că se învinovăţeşte pentru ceea ce a păţit ea, dar mai
ales trăieşte cu el – cu sufletul – pentru multe nopţii în compania
celui mai frumos cântec de leagăn posibil.
‘You are not a body. You have a body. You
are a Soul’
După recuperare, Pagan se întoarce la şcoală, cu Leif mereu după ea,
relaţia perfectă. Dar când află că la şcoală s-a înrolat un nou student,
solistul trupei rock Dank nu are nicio reacţie, dar când îşi dă seama că Dank
Walker este de fapt Sufletul, totul se schimbă!
“My beautiful soul,” he murmured and caressed my
cheek. “When you gave the ultimate selfless sacrifice, it paid for my wrong.
You proved to be worthy of my devotion. Of Death’s… love.”
Momente de gelozie pură se desfăşoară pentru mult timp, de agonie
sentimentală perfectă, de dorinţă involuntară de a fi cu altcineva când eşti
deja cu cineva.
Dar lucrurile trebuie să se schimbe! Dank pleacă. Pagan rămâne cu şi
mai multe întrebări. Realizările ei interioare făcându-ţi inima să sufere după
măcar o singură apariţie a lui! Dar încăpăţânarea sa depăşeşte orice
limite. Şi unde mai pui că după ce este internată într-un ospiciu de boli
mintale, diagnosticată cu Stres posttraumatic, Pagan reuşeşte în sfârşit să îi
audă din nou cântecele, cântecul ei de leagăn, compus special pentru ea.
<< “I get to keep you,” he said, staring at me
with an intensity that made me shiver. “Keep me?” I asked, reaching up to kiss
his chin and trail kisses down his perfect neck. “Not here. I can’t take much
more, Pagan. I’m only so strong,” he said in a husky voice as he pulled me
against his chest. “You’re mine now. While you walk the Earth you belong to me.
Nothing can hurt you.” I heard a touch of humor in his voice. “It’s pretty
impossible to hurt what Death protects.” I smiled into his chest, wanting to
stay in his arms forever. But there were questions I knew I needed to ask. I
could bask in his presence later. >>
Există o singură problemă: el trebuie să moară pentru ca ea să trăiască.
Ea trebuie să moară pentru ca el să trăiască! Dar cum poţi să te sacrifici
pentru Moarte? Dank este de fapt Death. Moartea, sufletul cel mai important
dintre toate! Dar Pagan nu cunoaşte limite când vine vorba de iubire aşa că se
aruncă direct în braţele lui Gee de a o transporta de acolo. De a muri ea
pentru el! Ce va alege Death? V-a accepta el moartea ei sau va muri el? Va fi
oare un final fericit?
Recomand cartea tuturor celor care consideră că Death nu a fost încă
exploatat aşa cum trebuie, tuturor celor care vor să trăiască claustraţi într-o
poveste romantică subtilă, dată la maximum!
“I love you,” I said, causing his face to contort in
pain. “I’m not a man so I do not have a heart that loves as a human does. I’m
an immortal god that dwells with supreme power because I hold the keys to
Death. But you are my existence. I am yours.”
Lectură plăcută!

Shattering Words

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